Wednesday, May 12, 2010
4 years old!
So I blinked...and this little guy turned 4 years old today.
I've always known I was excessively sentimental (I like that phrase better than just plain "sappy").
But I feel so sad the night before one of the kids' birthdays. I remember going into Drue's room last September 27th...just to kiss her one more time while she was 4.
And I did the same thing the night before Tate's birthday. I went in to kiss my sweet 3 year old. My last 3 year old I'll ever have.
I just couldn't help thinking: Was I the best Mom I could be to this little guy while he was 3? Because I'll never ever get that age back. Did I mold and shape his little personality as much as I could that year? Was I as patient with him as I should have been? Or was I too impatient with his 3 year old tantrums and neverending curiosity? Did I snuggle him as much as I could have? Did I tell him too many times "Mommy can't play right now because I have to finish (dishes, laundry, vacuumming...)"?
The days do slip by quickly but it's just so overwhelming for me to mark another entire year gone by. I can't freeze time...he did turn 4...and I must now put all my heart into enjoying, experiencing, and Mothering him at this age.
Tate is such a joy. He is still the happiest little boy I know. And I love that the simplest things can light up his whole face and make him giggle uncontrollably. Happy Birthday Buddy! We love you more than words can ever express.
Posted by Kristen at 8:53 PM